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So, today is my last day of work with this company.
I'm still not entirely sure what the future holds, though I have a few leads I'm chasing down. Most of them aren't ideal -- too far from home, not really the field I want to be working in, etc.
I think one problem is that the more I think about it, the less I want to be doing... this. Software engineering, in this kind of context. The entire industry is so high-pressure and stressful these days. It feels like every job description I read is like, "Seeking people who appreciate a high-energy, fast-moving environment," or "We want talented people who thrive in a demanding environment."
These do not describe me. High-energy, fast-moving, demanding environments leave me wanting to CLAW MY EYEBALLS OUT. But it's like if you want to be in software engineering, you have to love jobs that mean working until 1 AM every few weeks. I just don't know how to seek a change there.
My great-aunt passed away yesterday. It was no surprise, but it's going to alter a lot of plans for the weekend: there were graduation parties planned, and all sorts of things that will be... odd, now. I will miss her, but at the same time... she hasn't really been there for a few years now. Flashes of personality would show, but mostly she just lived in a kind of unhappy haze. I am sure she is much happier now. Go with God, Veezie.
I don't really know what the hell I'm doing in the office today. I probably need to meet with HR and some things like that. Turn in the computer I'm typing on, and some other miscellaneous equipment. I'm just kind of screwing around now.
Blah. I feel blah. :(
I'm still not entirely sure what the future holds, though I have a few leads I'm chasing down. Most of them aren't ideal -- too far from home, not really the field I want to be working in, etc.
I think one problem is that the more I think about it, the less I want to be doing... this. Software engineering, in this kind of context. The entire industry is so high-pressure and stressful these days. It feels like every job description I read is like, "Seeking people who appreciate a high-energy, fast-moving environment," or "We want talented people who thrive in a demanding environment."
These do not describe me. High-energy, fast-moving, demanding environments leave me wanting to CLAW MY EYEBALLS OUT. But it's like if you want to be in software engineering, you have to love jobs that mean working until 1 AM every few weeks. I just don't know how to seek a change there.
My great-aunt passed away yesterday. It was no surprise, but it's going to alter a lot of plans for the weekend: there were graduation parties planned, and all sorts of things that will be... odd, now. I will miss her, but at the same time... she hasn't really been there for a few years now. Flashes of personality would show, but mostly she just lived in a kind of unhappy haze. I am sure she is much happier now. Go with God, Veezie.
I don't really know what the hell I'm doing in the office today. I probably need to meet with HR and some things like that. Turn in the computer I'm typing on, and some other miscellaneous equipment. I'm just kind of screwing around now.
Blah. I feel blah. :(
